Not wedding related but i needed to share

I got a phone call on Thursday from my GP saying they had a letter from the primary care trust saying we had been refused funding at this time for IVF because of my weight (i am still a few lbs over the criteria), I really don't know how to take it, i know i did slack off the diet over Christmas but who doesn't??? Am i really that bad that by being a few lbs over i am going to seriously harm any future children?? And if they are choosing if i can have treatment if i am too fat or not surely they should not allow other large ladies to have babies the natural way. Take for instance my SIL (my older brothers girth friend as i like to call her) This is no exaggeration but she must be at the least 24stone, She has managed to have 4 babies, she does nothing while my brother goes out to work and then when he comes back he cooks the dinner and cleans and more or less does everything, when i used to go to their house she would call him from another room to say she needed something when it was not too far from her. She was allowed to have her babies and i am at more then 10 stone less than her, yes i am more than one whole person smaller then her but i am categorised as being too big. It really does break my heart. I know i am only 23 and i know i am not married but neither of us have children, neither of us smoke, neither of us drink (only on the odd occasion like a party) and we have been trying for more than 3 and a half years. So i am trying so much harder with the weight watchers for the next few weeks then i have to go back to the doctors to be weighed again to make sure i am under a BMI of 30 then we can fill in the paperwork again. The paperwork took almost 2 months to get a decision so if i lose enough weight and fill in the forms by the end of February, we should get another answer by April. Here is hoping.