Im so stressed

I really don't know what to do.....I am having all these problems at work and i really don't need the stress right now.

I have wrote about someone called Ewa before well, i was at work on Monday and she waited till about 10 minutes before we finished work to come over and corner me and ask if i had a mental problem, i had no idea what she was talking about but i found this very insulting because i have suffered with manic depression since i was in school, so i don't respect someone asking that. Anyway then she went on telling me i should stop talking about her on facebook because people are laughing at her....i had no idea what she was talking about again, yes i put something on facebook at the time she was talking about but i cant help the fact that she thinks the world revolves around her and that maybe this status wasn't about her, i dont get why people think they can use my personal facebook page as ammunition at work? So i just said it wasn't like she doesn't talk about me or anyone else to her friends but in her own language, to which she said yes she does and we are all women so what do i expect.......erm am i the only one who wants to know why its ok for people to talk about others because we are women but if i did say anything about her why she has a problem with it. Then she went to swear at me but stopped and said she wasn't going to say it because she was not like my mom (my mom swore in front of one of her friends when they had moved her work back just before Christmas) then i said she was exactly the same because she went to say it, then she proceeded to tell me to f**k off numerous times while waffling on about me growing up and stop causing trouble, when i got a word in a told her that she was in the wrong because she came to my work area and left hers just to have a go and intimidate my by standing over me while saying all this and just reading into things that wernt about her. She must have been looking for something to pin on me because she would have read the status then had to click to read more comments from what she told me she had read. As we had words before why would she feel the need to search my page and statuses for unless she was waiting for something to have a rant about. I will put a copy of the conversation between me and my friend that was on facebook so that you can see nowhere are there any names. I got worked up after she walked away when other people started turning up for the night shift so when i was ready to leave i told her if she had a problem with something outside of work then tell me outside of work, to which she flew off again saying i am the one with the problem and i should grow up, i sad she was the one who needed to grow up and how old is she, all she could say was how old am i?..... Well i am 24 this year she is 30 i think 6 years is a lot of time to mature to her standards and her sophistication (not that i would want to if that's how you act). In the end all i could think was she did it at the end of work hoping she could just go home and i would drop it and hoping the head of shift would have already left. I personally think she has some sort of attention disorder like she has to make sure everything is about her even if its not. Not long ago i woke up to people asking if i was ok i didn't under stand but when i went onto facebook i understand why, someone had set up a fake facebook page with my name and commented on every single picture that i was in with the word 'fake' now i have like 400 pictures with me in on there and every time they commented i got an email, looking at the times of the emails it took them about an hour and half and finished about 1:30 in the morning, don't that sound a little bit suspicious as the same week our clock-in cards were being moved. I told all of this to the head of shift nick and he said not to take it further as he will sort it and has it....no it got worse obviously when she was looming over me with her rant. So i rang ACAS who are like a union and told them the situation and what i should do about it, the lady said that it sounded like serious intimidation and should be taken higher which would be to write an official grievance letter to the manager saying what happened and to request a meeting to see how this is going to be solved. which i did. Nick wasn't pleased and didn't speak to me at all last night after he found out i had gone higher than him and gone to Geoff, but what does he expect when he was going round saying he would tell them but did nothing and then last night my mom herd him talking to other people about it. I was supposed to have a meeting today before work but i got a phone call saying the owners were thankful with the way i had dealt with things so far and they would do everything official so i should be getting a letter maybe today to say when the meeting is, i was also told the Ewa was not told about any of this so if i do get any comments from her i know who has told her. I am also allowed someone in the meeting with me so i asked June if she will come with me but it depends when it is now as i don't want to drag her down if it is out of work hours, she knows that i need the fertility treatment and is always asking how i am coping and am i dealing with the stresses so she knows what I'm going through. I have been pushed around way too much in my life and I'm not going to just push it away anymore. The only thing i am really bothered about is when ever one of the polish get told off for anything they pull the racist card, that would hurt me so much because i am the most un racist person in the world, i went to a primary school and secondary school when white English kids were the minority and so i have been bought up to see that as normal, one of my best friends in primary school was a refugee from Albania so how can i be racist???

This is what was put on facebook, where does that say anything spacific to a person? where is her name?

Amy Whittaker



At what age is it inappropriate to look like an over grown toddler???? I think someone missed the memo lol
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Adele Cashmore Funniest status I've read in a while!
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Amy Whittaker Its even funnier if you could see the person its about all i will say is a headband ok but a bow???? And they are like 30 lol
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Adele Cashmore When you mentioned toddler I had the image of a 30 year old woman in a baby grow or something similar!
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Amy Whittaker Not quite but i wouldnt put it past this person to wear something just as bad like a ribbon in their hair with dungrees (cant spell it sorry lol)
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Adele Cashmore This person sounds like a sight to be seen!
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Amy Whittaker She sure is
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Any way i could really do with some chill out time. I cant wait for the Easter holidays!!!!!!

I missed it :'(

I was just looking back at some of my posts and i cant believe i missed my blogaversary......i posted my first post on the 18th march 2010, it doesn't seem like i have been waffling on that long, lol.

Oh well my blog is now 1 year and 3 days old....

cheque...check

I mailed the check to the photographer last Monday and he rang on Friday i think it was saying he got the cheque and would be sorting out the paperwork, so now we really do have a photographer. Then my brother went on a little kiddy tantrum that he wasn't coming to the wedding because he cant take pictures, i said he can take pictures but if he is one of the groomsmen he is supposed to be down front with the rest of us and he is going to be n the pictures so wont the pictures look a little bit stupid with him standing there taking pictures too?? i never got another answer from him about that. I was saying to my mom, i don't have a problem with him taking pictures but if he does then he will have to step down from being groomsman and sit in the congregation like everyone else and if its like some churches they only allow the official photographer to mill around taking the pictures and even then they have rules, its like the best man has a professional video camera which we can use but he knows he wont be using it so he is going to show his brother how to do it in advance so he can be there to do that so my photos don't have my best man stood behind a camera.

Another good thing about our photographer is he has shot at our venues, that's all of them, the church himley hall and the hotel so he knows the best places to be, some great shots that can be had and some good set up shots too which is great, we got to see some of the pictures from himley hall as that was in one of the preview albums he was showing us. We also asked all the questions about copy write too and we get printable rights. This means we can go else where and get prints, books, canvases, anything we want, the only thing we cannot do is sell the pictures, but i don't see why i would be selling the pictures anyway. As we picked the cd package we get 2 cds, one with colour photos and one with black and white, all which have been 'fixed' if needed. We also get a proof folder so we can look through them all and even if we want to go back at a later date and order prints or albums we can.

Love it magazine

I love 'love it' magazine, i get it almost every week and there is always something in there that shocks me. But while i was looking through last week i thought im gonna send a picture of my puppy in to them just for the sake of it, so i went on the website and while looking i found this section where you can apply to try a diet from them, they supply everything and i can be in the mag. i thought why not reply i never get picked for anything right.....wrong....i had a girl from the magazine ring me today asking if i was up for it and i said yea so she will get back to me with more details, wow, i normally never like to really show myself or 'air my dirt laundry' as some may say but, i am so desperate at the moment to lose the weight i am willing to try anything, i finished weight watchers just 3 lbs less than when i started, i felt so ashamed, but for me i always felt like i was eating way to much while on it, like i eat a lot of fruit and veg anyway but as they are no points they dont cound then i was allowed 33 daily points then my weekly 49 and i was using no where near that unless we were going out for something like pizza and they were saying i should be sticking to my points but that was a lot of food for me, especially when i was under the nutritionalist before and they said as long as i was not feeling weak or like i was going to faint and i had enough energy i could manage on one meal a day, and that was from the hospital so from going from that where i managed to lose a lot of weight before to having to eat so much with weight watchers i couldnt put my finger on why i wasnt losing the weight. They also kept talking about how things like hormones and thyroid problems have nothing to do with weight, well that really bothered me because i have already done my research and hormones do play a major roll and this is a reason why someone with PCOS like me has problems losing weight but they wouldnt see that, just the weight watchers formula and it works there is proof, but i just wanted to scream and say please live my life work my work deal with my stresses and then deal with the hormonal imbalance and show me how easy it is to lose weight because im not playing around, i need to lose this weight if i have any chance at a family and even just for that reason only i would try anything but i know starving myself will do more harm than good.

How can i win?????

We have a photographer

Yes that is right...well when i send this cheque and booking form back to the guy that is.....

We had a meeting with a guy me and my mom met at a wedding fayre at the hotel we are having and i thought there was just something about him that made me like him, he had over 30 years experience, 100's of weddings under his belt and not only is he a wedding photographer he is a general professional photographer, he does modeling shoots, advertising shoots, he even told us he has had to photo almost everything you can think of even down to this months project of photographing sockets, yes like the plug sockets, lol. He said he has been doing photography since he was 16 and has never thought of doing anything else. His work is amazing and he has shot at the places we are having so we could see how those turned out, which were great. The package starts with me at home (or in the hotel in my case) then he rushes off to meet Dave at the church, then takes his place in the church and does the usual church work, then gives us time to mingle after while taking the candid shots, then set up for the traditional shots, then travel to himley with us for more photos then to the hotel until the wedding breakfast. We decided we were going with the basic CD package to start then after we can decide to go back and order albums or prints if we want and all of this for £750 which i think is great for the quality and friendliness he would bring.

Now all i have to do is write the cheque and fill in the forms and send them off.

One thing down so many more to go.

Millies cookies

I think i have an obsession and need to go to confession, well as i don't go to confession i will just confess on here.

Ever since i had my first Millie's cookie i knew they were something else, now most of the time when i go to the shopping centre i try to avoid it as i never just get 1 or 2 i get the share box of 12!!! Which is what i did today. While the guy was wrapping them i saw they did a years supply for £35 so i asked how many that was exactly. He said for the £35 you get 12 gift cards that are worth one 12 share box, which works out to be half price, it sounded like a good deal but he made it a great deal by saying it doesn't have to be used one a month and there are no expiration date on them so i could get them all now or i could get them anytime. Well as i love them i decided to get me the years supply. (Just the years supply cards not actually get the 12 boxes that would just be greedy) So i spent a total of £40.99 on cookies today. lol. Then i walked away from the shop and thought of an amazing idea. I am going to get Millie's cookies for the wedding. at £35 for 144 cookies i think that is a great price. I was going to make my own but with getting the ingredient and making them then re-buying as i have eaten them all it would be cheaper to get these and i can put them on the candy table. MMMMMMMM.

12 share box plus my 12 gift cards in a nice little box.

our catch up

I met up with my MOH on Saturday to bring her up to date with the bits and pieces that i have decided on. She had an op on her knee last week so her daddy dropped her off and we went to the pub for lunch which was amazing i will have to go there again, but anyway lol, i think it told her about everything and she LOVES!!!!! the idea of the candy buffet. I got to meet her new boyfriend too, and i must admit he is a lot better than the last one, i don't mean the last one wasn't a nice guy but looking back now it was like he was trying to get people to like like her was trying to hard but Scott seemed like a genuine guy but its still early days so we will see.

As it is the beginning of lent i have decided to take it serious this year, last year i managed it but i only went with the chocolate as it was something i thought i could do as there would be something i could substitute it with but this year i have decided that i am giving up bread and other yeast products, i know this will be a challenge for me as i think bread is a big part of my diet like a roll with my soup and grilled cheese sandwiches, so i am going to work hard and maybe this will keep my mind on track and i can concentrate on the prayers that's are needed. I'm sure with the help of my mom i will make it.

Its what month????!!!!!!

I cant believe it is march already!!!!!! Just when the joint account is starting to look healthy money has to start coming out for deposits and buying things, i don't want to take the money out, lol. I need to wait till Thursday to see how much i am going to get paid this week as i have been working everyday since the 14th Feb and i want to know how much the tax man is going to take. I know what i am going to do, I'm going to sign on my online banking at just after midnight on Wednesday night and i should be able to see, so if you hear a funny noise it may be me, either screaming because I'm rich or calling someone all the scamming dirty asshole bitches under the sun.

Another plus point we are now the proud owners of a new (please read preloved) renault megane and i am insured to drive it too!!!! It turns out i almost halved the insurance by adding me to the policy so i think that entitles me to drive it don't you think.

Me and the MR sat down the other day and worked out prices for the wedding and how much we would have left over for extras and we decided we are going to hire suits as before we were worried we may just have to buy some cheap-ish suits but we worked it out and we should be ok, the only thing is it is the same price for 6 suits as it is for 5 (due to if you hire 5 the groom goes free) so we either need to think of another friend to wear one or get my grandad to wear one but i don't really want to ask him as he will take it as a hint and will pay for it and i don't want to sound like my sisters begging for money, its just not me, but we have time before we have to pay the deposits and sort it out so we should be ok. I also need to find more bowls and things for candies to go in as i only have the 4 vases at the moment, i like the thought of going to TKMaxx again as they had some good stuff on offer but i just cant be bothered to go all that way if they don't have anything, but then again i may be able to convince Dave to let me drive us there, we will see. Also we still don't know what to do about the photographer, when me and my mom went to the last wedding fayre we met this really nice guy who does it and he sounded really professional and all the pictures we looked at were really good with the posed ones and the candid shots but it costs £750 just for the cd package, which in our current situation could be used on something else but there isn't much of an alternative.