teary time

As i think everyone on the planet knows that yesterday was the royal wedding and i have to say i was looking forward to it for quite some time. Mostly because i wanted to see the dress but i also wanted to see the look on williams face when he saw kate, that was a priceless moment. I do love the dress so much, it was spectacular (i wish i was able to get away with a dress like that) but i had vissions of her wearing something more like what her sister was wearing just with a longer train to show off her amazing figure, but she looked so beautiful i dont think the dress would really change much for her.

There was just a few things about the wedding that got to me and made me unable to watch it all. I managed to see up until he had given her her ring but i had to excuse myself to the bathroom, i got so upset that its going to be even longer until i am in that position, not that i will be marrying a prince of england or having people from all over the world and celebrities to my wedding but to me my little wedding would still have made me feel like a princess. Not knowing when our wedding will be is really getting to me. Maybe if money was no problem then i dont thing i would have so much stress and i could set another date but with all of our problems that need to be resolved are mostly issues that involve money which really doesnt help.

Another excuse i had to leave watching the wedding is Mimi had to go to the vets during the wedding (we got back as they were coming out of the church). With cavaliers they have a common problem with their knees, well i have noticed that Mimi walks with her legs straight sometimes and it has gotten significantly more frequant so i was keeping an eye on her and i saw her knees wobble as she walked away from me, at the vets they confirmed what i thought, she has luxating patella on her back right leg and maybe on her back left, she is booked in for a consult with the ortho on friday and to have sedation and xrays. I got a little upset as she is still just a puppy (10 months) but they said it is better to get it sorted sooner rather than later. If the ortho thinks it is serious she may need surgery which seems like a big step. I am just hoping its not going to cost too much as there are limits to her insurance and just the consult, sedation and xrays are going to cost just under £160 which is quite expensive but i have seen somebodies quote for surgery and that was £1200. I will keep you updated with what happens.

Little bit of a change in the big day

Well there is still going to be a big day just not of the wedding variety (well for a little while anyways). Let me explain.

Next year me and Dave turn 25 (no not on the same day and we are not some backwards inbread incestuous twins either). Daves birthday is in march and mine is in september so last night we decided there was need for some fun next year so we decided we would have a big joint 25th birthday party, even better it will be fancy dress. As i have posted before i love dressing up, i do it for christmas at work, for charity fun runs give me an excuse and i will dress for it. So we decided that we will maybe have it around june or july which is in the middle so i will be having a premature quarter of a century party. I was in a little world of my own after we decided as to what i would dres up as and here were some of my choices and the reasons.

Pirate.

I always wanted a pirate party, i just think it would be so fun and i would get to burn invitations and things like that and make treasure maps for directions, but i dont think everyone would be all for that and so either wouldnt come or they wouldnt dress up.

Rocky horror.

I love the rocky horror picture show, i have watched it so many times and i even have the glee special soundtrack too, yes i am a gleek but who can blame me right? well i thought i could be Janet for the first half then change into something a little more racy later but then i thought. I really dont want to see the likes of my dad, brother and some friends in not much more than underwear, the thought makes me a little bit on the ill side so thats not really a good idea.

Jessica Rabbit.

I loved the way she looked with her red dress, long legs and red hair, she was what a real woman would look like to me, she had amazing curves. I dont think i have a reason not to go for this option apart from i dont want to wear a wig but im also not sure if i want to dye my hair red either.

Pageant queen.

I never got to have a prom in school but always wanted to wear an amazing gown, other than a wedding dress obviously, but i never got to wear one so i thought if i got a gown, sash and a crown i could go as a pageant queen. Only thing is the price of the gown, sash and crown.

Avatar (navi).

Since i found out about this movie i loved the look of the navi, one problem i just dont have the body shape to walk around in a skin tight blue suit, if i ever got that small this would be my first choice but i dont think i could pull it off.

I will re post when i think of something else.

Its on hold

That's right we have had to put the wedding on hold. We don't know how long for but we had taken on way too much and i ended up breaking down. I am not in a stable position to deal with this right now, it is still the one thing i want but it cant happen just yet, not when this is something we have control over and that we don't really have to do but other things in our lives right now we cant control and that need to take priority. I am quite upset that we have to do this but we cant see a way of dealing with it all at once, i feel like i have to be wonder woman sometimes to deal with it but i just don't have the powers. It was hard but we both had to take a long hard look at our lives and we had a hard decision to make as we will lose a lot in deposits but we know that we probably wouldn't even make it to the wedding if we pushed ourselves anymore we would either end up in a mental institute or something worse. There are a few things we need to sort out but they are major things and they cant be ignored, they may bring us closer but if they don't get sorted i fear they will push us apart.

chair covers

I have been a little bit reluctant to post anything about the wedding lately as once i had found what i thought was a great deal it either fell through or there were catches but we finally have chair covers, well we don't have them as such but i sent off the cheque for them today, they are £1.95 per chair and that includes a sash so we ordered 85 of those then we have to add one a £50 deposit that will also play as a security deposit so we will get that back 2 weeks after the wedding if everything is all in order. so in the last month i have written cheques of over £230 just on deposits which does feel a bit sickening but i suppose it has to be done.

So we have the following off the top of my head there are probably a few things i have forgotten:
Church
Hotel
Photographer
Chair covers
My dress
My shoes
My tiara
Bridesmaids shoes
Cuff links
Stationary stock
1/3 of the jars/vases/bowls for candies
Hundreds of candles
Items for centre pieces
Some decorations e.g bows
Dj for reception
Cake

I know there has to be something i have forgot but it is past 1am so i cant really be blamed can i.