We have contact

No not with aliens....with Amy....

She text me yesterday as the last message i sent her was saying i am thinking of going to go ape and did she and Chris want to come with, well she text me saying she was up for going but it would just be her as they broke up. She said they had grown apart and just were not getting on, so i decided that we should make it a girls day so she is texting Deb to see if the wants to come with us, it should be fun as the last time i went i didn't realise just how good it was going to be. It was tiring on the arms at parts but i loved is so i wanted to go again, and when i said to Amy before that we should go she said it would be awesome so we will take loads of pictures, we are not going till April though it might be warmer then lol.

Stressed much??

After the week i have had i was hoping for a little bit of non stress time, even just a few days, but nope, work hasn't been too stressful just the usual drama over the fact that i have been allowed to do a higher roll for a few days while June isn't there (June sorts out break times and checks on everyone when we go in) when its normally another girl called Ewa that does it. No where in our contract does it say that just because you have stood in for someone before that you have a free pass to do it all the time, i just asked if i could do it on Fridays as it is overtime and June doesn't do overtime, i never said that i am doing it just so Ewa cant do it. She came in on Friday dressed up like to say i am boss i don't have to dress like you as i am doing Junes job, but then she found out she wasn't and i was. She had a face like thunder and gave me some proper attitude too (i am 23 she is like 30 so she should be a little bit more grown up than me. I also had to do this job again on Wednesday as June was not in again. I was told yesterday that i got a lot of good feedback about how good i did and people liked what i did and did i want to do it again on Friday, i just said if they want me to i will but if they had someone else in mind i didn't mind, which i don't, i go there knowing i have to do a job which ever job that is i am still there for 5 and half hours so we will see what i am doing today.

On top of work i still haven't heard from my MOH, i haven't seen her since September, i have messaged her loads of times and on facebook too but have heard nothing, it hasn't all been about weddings either i asked her if she and her boyfriend was up for go ape around Easter time but didn't hear anything. It really is starting to upset me a little because she was really excited and i had allowed her to be escorted by her own boyfriend. I wasn't making her buy her own dress or his suit i was getting it all so i don't understand. i have already started getting a few things like shoes and so if she doesn't get in touch i have a pair of shoes but no MOH. I don't think it is just a matter of picking someone else to do the job. I drifted away from a lot of my friends when i left school and being just one of 6 in our college class i am not ashamed to say i don't have many friends, but i don't have anyone really who can stand in for her, not just as my MOH but someone i can talk to about my fertility situation, she knew about the infertility and asked me to keep her updated but i have tried since finding out we will have to go for IVF but she hasn't got back to me so she doesn't know that and so she doesn't know we also god rejected either. I really don't know what to do. The wedding is already going to be more male dominant anyway by there being the groom, best man, my dad, my brother, my FFIL and my MOH's boyfriend if she comes compared to there being me, my brothers girlfriend and then my MOH if i had one, and even though my mom is my best friend she isn't one to want to be seen so she wouldn't really be counted as one of my ladies.

For someone who should be making their life as stress free as possible I'm not doing a very good job of it.

Not wedding related but i needed to share

I got a phone call on Thursday from my GP saying they had a letter from the primary care trust saying we had been refused funding at this time for IVF because of my weight (i am still a few lbs over the criteria), I really don't know how to take it, i know i did slack off the diet over Christmas but who doesn't??? Am i really that bad that by being a few lbs over i am going to seriously harm any future children?? And if they are choosing if i can have treatment if i am too fat or not surely they should not allow other large ladies to have babies the natural way. Take for instance my SIL (my older brothers girth friend as i like to call her) This is no exaggeration but she must be at the least 24stone, She has managed to have 4 babies, she does nothing while my brother goes out to work and then when he comes back he cooks the dinner and cleans and more or less does everything, when i used to go to their house she would call him from another room to say she needed something when it was not too far from her. She was allowed to have her babies and i am at more then 10 stone less than her, yes i am more than one whole person smaller then her but i am categorised as being too big. It really does break my heart. I know i am only 23 and i know i am not married but neither of us have children, neither of us smoke, neither of us drink (only on the odd occasion like a party) and we have been trying for more than 3 and a half years. So i am trying so much harder with the weight watchers for the next few weeks then i have to go back to the doctors to be weighed again to make sure i am under a BMI of 30 then we can fill in the paperwork again. The paperwork took almost 2 months to get a decision so if i lose enough weight and fill in the forms by the end of February, we should get another answer by April. Here is hoping.

candy buffet

I have been looking through a few wedding forums and there seem to be a lot of good feed back from candy buffets, i did want one but never knew if they would be popular or even if people would take any but after seeing that everyone had had success we have decided we are going to have one. We love sweets, all kinds and so does most of our families, and come on who doesn't like sweets, we will have soft sweets like harribo and other jellies but also bonbons, pear drops and mints. I am still looking to see what jars or bowls we are going to use but most people have had a variety so we will have a look at charity shops and ikea to see what we can get.

We also need to come up with a little poem to put on the table so here is a few little ideas, we may not use any of this and steal someone Else's but you never know.

Love is sweet,

Love is grand.

Welcome to our candy stand.

On a table,

Or a cart,

Check the tags to tell them apart.

Some for the old,

Some for the young.

Mix up the bag and you cant go wrong.

Take them all home,

Or eat them right here.

Watch out for the sour ones, 

You may shed a tear.

Think of others,

We like to share,

Why not have a candy bear.

Now you've had your candy treat,

Get up on your dancing feet.

Wow that worked out better than i thought, We just have to make sure we get candy bears now. lol. Here is my list of sweets that i would like:



Parma Violets




Bonbons (different flavours)




Giant Strawberries




Gummy Bears



Sour Cherries



Pear Drops




Millions (different flavours)




Love Hearts (maybe personalised ones)




Gummy rings




Lolly pops


MMMMMM i feel like eating sweeties now lol.

  

THE coolest save the date in the WORLD....maybe....

As i was getting up to date with my subscriptions i came across this one from met my match and i just had to share it.


Kate and Rich - 'Save the Date' (Wedding Invitation Film) from FX Films on Vimeo.

Wasn't that just the coolest thing you have ever seen, i laughed so much i had to watch it a second time. It got me thinking of what we were going to do (as we intended on just telling our family and sending little emails to our friends) and i though like less than 20 minutes ago, the MR qualified as a game designer so maybe we could make a little game for people to play that would give them the information before the invitation. I really haven't thought this through (as you can tell this will probably never work lol) but it would be awesome to do something like this or a video of some sort, a DVD game or something, i am so going to sleep on the idea and maybe look into it before i tell the MR and for him just to laugh in my face and send me to the local asylum lol. Any way i will let you know what i decided at some point.

What a bust

The main word in the title was 'bust', as i said in a previous post i had ordered a new wedding dress, well i got a 14 and a 16, i got in the 14 but i couldn't get my boobs in, they could barely get in the 16, i looked a mess, well from the under bust up below looked great. So i will be sticking with my original dress, after my mom talked me into putting it on again and we thought we could use the spare hanging straps for the dress maker to fix the broken loop, then she will pay for it to be cleaned, if it makes me happy, i am happy but at the same time i feel like i am still going to look like i had a really big dress but scrimped on everything else.

Don't get me wrong i LOVE!!!!! my original dress and it was always me favourite from the moment the lady in the shop talked me into trying it on. Also, i got a veil a while ago, i wanted an elbow length one so i though i would look on eBay, there was one advertised as a 2 tier elbow length veil, when i got it it was a 3 tier and it is past fingertip length, it was also supposed to be ivory but it couldn't be more white if you bleached it. So this has put me off wearing a veil.

One good point it i have got a new curling wand and i can curl my hair quite easy, and it stays in all day!!! This has never happened before, i tried it out at our works Christmas party and that is in a hot factory so i though with the cold and wind outside and the heat inside i would end up with flat hair before anyone got there but it was still curly the next day!!

This one was at work.

This was late that night before i went to bed.

This one is around 5pm the next day (after i had a mole removed from my face, are you just loving my Nelly look lol.)

So i will now be having my hair curly for the wedding with my tiara and no veil. I am not sure how good the curls will be if my hair is longer but if i try it and it doesn't work as good or at all then i will cut my hair to the length it is now which is around my shoulders so i know how long it needs to be to get a good curl.

bridesmaid dresses came

OK, yesterday the bridesmaid dresses came, as in my previous post i said i got the black one and a purple dip dyed one, well the dip dyed one just looked cheap, i tried them on and i wouldn't make my bridesmaids wear it at all, it made the boobs look so strange, and on Emma it was a little bit off the ground which i didn't want. The black one well what can i say about the black one other than.....I WANT ONE....I WANT ONE!!!!!!! it is amazing, its not thick like most bridesmaids dresses so it should make them sweat as much and they are very forgiving, they have this little split up the front of the top layer up to the boob line so it skims the curves beautifully and it came to the floor and didn't look too over the top or to revealing, i love it, i ordered a size 20 to try for Emma but she is losing weight so i think i will have to send them back then wait about 6/8 months to see whats going on then see about ordering it again, i have still not heard anything for my MOH so i will message her saying i have picked dresses that are black and hers may need to be taken up when i order it but if i don't hear anything then I'm not going to bother again, i will wait for her to get in touch. I ordered my dress which was a 16 but the date of delivery keeps going up it was at 14th jan now it is up to 25th jan so i looked and they had a 14 so i tried to order that, it says delivery on 11th jan which is Tuesday so we will see. i think a 14 may work as i could lose a few lbs if needed its not like i have to lose stones or anything so that's not a problem, the only worry is i am very top heavy so i will have to squish my boobies in to fit but i can always make them a bit flatter with a new bra so that's not a problem. When i told my mom she asked if i am going to change my mind again as i already got my other dress on her credit card and now i don't want it. I told her that it still is my dream dress and i would love to wear it but like how the one loop at the back snapped, what is to say all the others wont snap, it would just bother me, and i thought as i am not really going over board on other things and would like to save as much money as possible for any future fertility treatment that i don't want an over the top dress then for people to think i went and spent all my money on the dress and just got everything else on the cheap. I just think the new dress, should it fit, would be a bit more elegant but girly and more age appropriate, i want to look young as I'm not old, i think it is a very youthful dress. S me and my mom are going to see about putting my current dress back on eBay and just say i changed my mine, i am only human i am allowed to change my mind aint i???
We went to the flower warehouse today and i got 40 pull bows, 20 in cadbury purple and 20 in a shade lighter and they were really cheap too, about £3.50 a box with vat. They also have favour boxes in lilac a pack of 10 for £1.60 so about £10 for 6 packs.
I have been looking at the same site for the past year about the flowers and i think i am going to get my bouquets from them, for mine and 2 bridesmaids flowers its gonna cost about £55 which isn't too much. So far i think i have everything under control other than the MOH situation.

I will keep you posted when/if my dress arrives.

Im here

I am here.... it feels like forever and a day since i last posted even though it was probably only a few days ago.

Well last year i got weird looks when i said i was getting married in 2012 like it was a million years away but now i can say i am getting married next year!!!!!!!!! I seems so close....

Well i was having a bit of a bored day today so i was searching the net for everything and anything. I came across a few dresses that would be suitable for my bridesmaids but i need to see if they would be long enough for Emma as she is quite tall so i would order a few to see. this was the original one i was going to order.

This dress was for £89 and does not come with the blue stole but a purple one, but when i decided to order one that's when they decided the biggest they had was in a 14 and that would be too small so i had to give up on that one.

Then i found this one which i cant remember how much it was but it was about the same price maybe a little bit cheaper.

I ordered this one in black but the picture was a bit dark so here it is but in blue, it looks so pretty and hopefully it is long enough.

I also ordered this one too which i thought was awesome.

They are not from a bridesmaid shop or anything so i can send them back but i think i like this one because its just lighter and fresher looking.

Then as i was looking i fell in love, now i know i have said my dress is my dream dress, there are so many things about it that are just irritating me about it like having to have the lace hook fixed then there is no guarantee that the others would not break and it needs to be cleaned and i just have fell out of love with it. but i found this one that i think would work with the fact that i have found a hair style that is quite low maintenance and so this dress is a bit simpler and it was on sale for £150!!!!!!!!!! i thought my dress was a bargain but this one is brand new and this cheap how could i not order it, and it was the last one in a size 16 too. So without making you wait any longer here it is.

As we have been having fertility issues my body shape is most likely to change in the next 20 months and i think this dress will suit any shape and if it just so happened that i am in the situation where i am with child (i know not a perfect situation but it will hide it well and it will all be worth it.

The bridesmaids dresses should be coming this Friday and the wedding dress the following Friday. I cant wait.

Now a little moan. My MOH started uni this past September and so i understand that she will be busy but since then i have messaged numerous times by phone and on facebook and have not heard anything from her even though i know she wasn't always busy over Christmas. I don't know what to think, could it be she doesn't want anything to do with it any more. i cant think of a reason why she wouldn't at least message me saying hi and that she is really busy with uni but i got nothing. I have not ordered her a dress yet as they are mostly just to see if they are long enough for Emma but if she doesn't get in touch then I'm not gonna get a dress as it is a lot of money to spend if she wont be needing it. if she does then she may have to have a different dress and deal with it. What am i supposed to do???????