Its on hold

That's right we have had to put the wedding on hold. We don't know how long for but we had taken on way too much and i ended up breaking down. I am not in a stable position to deal with this right now, it is still the one thing i want but it cant happen just yet, not when this is something we have control over and that we don't really have to do but other things in our lives right now we cant control and that need to take priority. I am quite upset that we have to do this but we cant see a way of dealing with it all at once, i feel like i have to be wonder woman sometimes to deal with it but i just don't have the powers. It was hard but we both had to take a long hard look at our lives and we had a hard decision to make as we will lose a lot in deposits but we know that we probably wouldn't even make it to the wedding if we pushed ourselves anymore we would either end up in a mental institute or something worse. There are a few things we need to sort out but they are major things and they cant be ignored, they may bring us closer but if they don't get sorted i fear they will push us apart.