My first work outing!!!

I have been working at the same place for the last 4 years and this is the first time they have invited everyone out to a function, we went to the dogs, i had never been before so i was panicing about what to wear, but it was ok as the owners had put in place a dress code of no trainers and casual jeans so i thought that was the go ahead to dress up. For the past month i went out trying to find just the right thing to wear, as i was losing weight i tried skinny jeans and they fitted but then i lost a bit more weight and ended up in between sizes so they looked bad so i went on the look for something else, a dress maybe. I am not one for wearing dresses when i am around a lot of people as i feel i am being judged all the time but on the day of going out i found the hottest dress ever from dorothy perkins and after trying it on i knew it was the one, i knew it was highly unlikely that i would lose/gain that much weight in a matter of 5 hours that it wouldn't fit. So i went to the checkout and got the shock of my life, the dress was reduced to just £15!!!!!!! It really was my lucky day. so i got home hung up the dress so there were no creases and painted my nails, and curled my hair which took me little over an hour as i had to run up the road to tesco as i forgot to pick up some hairspray while in town.

We had  VIP booth, free betting, open bar (hell yes), food and a whole lotta fun.

(just to get an idea of how much this must have cost in total, there were around 65 of us and we ran up a bar tab of just under £3000!!!! yes that was 3 thousand pounds. But like the owners said in a time when a lot of companies have had to close they were blessed enough to be swamped with work and in a position to let up drink and bet without putting our own hand in our own pockets so we were so grateful for their generosity)

All i can say is the dress along with some killer heels and a little hint of cleavage (maybe a little more than a hint lol) and my night was amazing, i will let the pictures do the talking....

Me and Rory

Me and Rory being rude, lol.

Janet, June, Me, Hayley, Mehmet and Jane.

Janet, June and Jane.

Julain, Stuart (one of the my glendennings - the owners) and Susan.

Janet, June, Jane, Mick, Hayley and Steph.

Nick

Paul and Ian.

Ian (with his naughty grin) and Me

Waqar

Me and Waqar

Mick and one of the receptionists.

Mick and Me

Me, Oscar (stuarts son and his designated driver) People off day shift who i don't quite know their names lol.

Day shift guy, Glen, Mick, Kim, me and Miles (the other owner and another glendenning)

Laura, Rory and Me

Laura and me

Rory and me, (he was very dunk and kept asking for pictures lol)

Me and Hayley mid grope while stuart glendenning took the picture, lol.

Rory and Hayley

Stuart and Hayley

Waqar, Hayley and Asif

Waqar and Hayley

Asif and Hayley

Hayley, Waqar, Me, Asif and My mom

Waqar, Me and Asif

Waqar and Glen

Me and Nice Ewa

The coach ride home.

Me and Hayley

I think it was a very good night all round apart from one of the older ladies being sick on the coach which was a little bit rank but i got some good feedback yesterday at work. And a few whistles lol.

My 2010

I have just caught up with all the amazing blogs i read and there were 97 posts, it took a while. I love to read this blog which is one of the only uk wedding blogs i could find, today i read that she had read a list of questions all about their experiences in 2010 and so i decided to steal it too, thanks lou i also voted for you too by the way if you are reading this.


1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?


In 2010 i took fertility drugs, they didnt work but i tried.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I decided in 2009 i wasnt going to make a resolution for 2010 and just go with whatever happens but for this year i decided i was going to make the most common one which is to lose weight which i have to do to be able to qualify for IVF so i think this one will be kept even if it does take a bit longer than i would like.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Nope, nobody i now that i am that close to did in 2010 which was a good thing as i was going through a bad year and would have probably flipped if they had.
4. Did anyone close to you die?

I wasnt that close to her but an awesome lady at work called glenis died just before the new year, early last year a girl bought in wine for her birthday and glenis had a few and we thought she had a lot more than that as she was very slurry and couldnt focus properly but she was joking about as eveyone thought she had just had one too many, on the monday she didnt come in to work, a few days later we heard she might have had a stroke, turns out she had 3 brain tumors. Her funeral was January and it was so beautiful.
5. What countries did you visit?

I didnt visit anywhere last year, I decided that i was going to pay off my debt as soon as i could so i didnt take a holiday.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

A baby would be nice.
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

3rd September because this was when i went to pick up my puppy mimi she was so small.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I know it isnt really an achievement for some but i managed to swallow pills which is something i have never been able to do.
9. What was your biggest failure?

Not being able to put myself in a good enough shape to beable to get pregnant
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Just my PCOS and infertility
11. What was the best thing you bought?

My wedding dress at a saving of over £700!!!!!!! And my dog..
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

Dave for standing by me through all of this infertility and having tests done.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

i cant think of anyone right now.
14. Where did most of your money go?

Paying off my debt and buying wedding stuff.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

I got so excited about being debt free, i know that may not sound so exciting to some people but to be debt free for me is so surreal as i have been in debt since college.
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

Bruno Mars - Billionaire
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? Happier

(b) thinner or fatter? Thinner

(c) richer or poorer? Richer



18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Gone out on day trips and out for drinks or lunch with friends.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Eat!!!!
20. How did you spend Christmas?

With the family playing games and eating....a lot...
21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

Yes i did....with Mimi
22. What was your favourite TV programme?

I am so into Disney channel so sonny with a chance and also four weddings.
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Ewa!!!!!!
24. What was your greatest musical discovey?

I have to agree with lou on this one it has to be Glee
25. What did you want and get?

I wanted to get my wedding dress and i got it at an awesome price too.
26. What did you want and not get?

A baby.
27. What was your favourite film of this year?

Harry potter, cant wait for part 2
28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 23 and i went to go ape for my birthday.
29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

The fertility drugs to have worked so that i dont have to go through major treatment.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

Plain, i dont remember much else than jeans and tops, other then shoes i remember lots of shoes lol
31. What kept you sane?

Knowing that i am going to have to start growing up if i am to go though such treatments so i had to work on who i am and what i really want.
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Johnny Depp it is, has and always will be, he is just so munchable, lol.
33. What political issue stirred you the most?

That they were thinking of axing all government funded fertility treatment, but will still treat smokers, drinkers and fatties.
34. Who did you miss?

Dunno
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?

you really cant judge a book by its cover, just because someone looks fit and healthy that in reality they may not be and not everyone who has fertility treatment are older ladies who decided to have a career first, it can happen to young seemingly healthy couples.

Beter late than never..

I was meant to post this last night but i never got round to do it as i had to stop the dog from barking every 2 seconds because the wind was making noises so here it is.

As i said yesterday i picked up some great bargains from TKMaxx yesterday and just had to show you what i got, I plan on using these as the main parts of my candy buffet, i will also be getting some other vases, jars and bowls from Ikea when i can but these were just such a great deal i couldn't not get them.



Please excuse the holes in the wall i tried to hang shelves but the wall plugs were just not playing along.

 I am thinking if i can get about 12 different ones then fill them with different things it would look good, i might even place boxes under the table clothe so we have to variation in height but that is something i will sort out in a long time.

Don't you just love the shoes too, these are just one of my new pairs. I went searching Ikea the one day for a suitable shoe cupboard which didn't take up too much room but could hold a reasonable amount of shoes as i have a lot, lol. Well we have been invited to go to the dogs with the work next week and i think i have bought myself 4 new outfits and 2 new pairs of shoes, lol. Yes just for the one night, i am not very confidant in what i wear, i am always thinking people are judging me so i thought if i had a few to choose from then i might feel a bit more comfortable. My last buy was SKINNY jeans, i have never worn skinny jeans before, but i have lost weight and with heels it doesn't look too bad, i just need to find a top that isn't too tight to wear with it so that i don't look like a dodgy sandy from grease wannabe lol.

quick one

Me and my mom were shopping today and in TKMax we found some awesone vases that we could use for the candy buffet so i picked out 4 in different sizes and styles thinking it was going to cost a bomb but they didnt i got all 4 for just under £22!!!!! I will post pictures later and a little bit about our problem we had yeterday tonight when i finish work but i was just so excited i needed to blog.

We have contact

No not with aliens....with Amy....

She text me yesterday as the last message i sent her was saying i am thinking of going to go ape and did she and Chris want to come with, well she text me saying she was up for going but it would just be her as they broke up. She said they had grown apart and just were not getting on, so i decided that we should make it a girls day so she is texting Deb to see if the wants to come with us, it should be fun as the last time i went i didn't realise just how good it was going to be. It was tiring on the arms at parts but i loved is so i wanted to go again, and when i said to Amy before that we should go she said it would be awesome so we will take loads of pictures, we are not going till April though it might be warmer then lol.

Stressed much??

After the week i have had i was hoping for a little bit of non stress time, even just a few days, but nope, work hasn't been too stressful just the usual drama over the fact that i have been allowed to do a higher roll for a few days while June isn't there (June sorts out break times and checks on everyone when we go in) when its normally another girl called Ewa that does it. No where in our contract does it say that just because you have stood in for someone before that you have a free pass to do it all the time, i just asked if i could do it on Fridays as it is overtime and June doesn't do overtime, i never said that i am doing it just so Ewa cant do it. She came in on Friday dressed up like to say i am boss i don't have to dress like you as i am doing Junes job, but then she found out she wasn't and i was. She had a face like thunder and gave me some proper attitude too (i am 23 she is like 30 so she should be a little bit more grown up than me. I also had to do this job again on Wednesday as June was not in again. I was told yesterday that i got a lot of good feedback about how good i did and people liked what i did and did i want to do it again on Friday, i just said if they want me to i will but if they had someone else in mind i didn't mind, which i don't, i go there knowing i have to do a job which ever job that is i am still there for 5 and half hours so we will see what i am doing today.

On top of work i still haven't heard from my MOH, i haven't seen her since September, i have messaged her loads of times and on facebook too but have heard nothing, it hasn't all been about weddings either i asked her if she and her boyfriend was up for go ape around Easter time but didn't hear anything. It really is starting to upset me a little because she was really excited and i had allowed her to be escorted by her own boyfriend. I wasn't making her buy her own dress or his suit i was getting it all so i don't understand. i have already started getting a few things like shoes and so if she doesn't get in touch i have a pair of shoes but no MOH. I don't think it is just a matter of picking someone else to do the job. I drifted away from a lot of my friends when i left school and being just one of 6 in our college class i am not ashamed to say i don't have many friends, but i don't have anyone really who can stand in for her, not just as my MOH but someone i can talk to about my fertility situation, she knew about the infertility and asked me to keep her updated but i have tried since finding out we will have to go for IVF but she hasn't got back to me so she doesn't know that and so she doesn't know we also god rejected either. I really don't know what to do. The wedding is already going to be more male dominant anyway by there being the groom, best man, my dad, my brother, my FFIL and my MOH's boyfriend if she comes compared to there being me, my brothers girlfriend and then my MOH if i had one, and even though my mom is my best friend she isn't one to want to be seen so she wouldn't really be counted as one of my ladies.

For someone who should be making their life as stress free as possible I'm not doing a very good job of it.

Not wedding related but i needed to share

I got a phone call on Thursday from my GP saying they had a letter from the primary care trust saying we had been refused funding at this time for IVF because of my weight (i am still a few lbs over the criteria), I really don't know how to take it, i know i did slack off the diet over Christmas but who doesn't??? Am i really that bad that by being a few lbs over i am going to seriously harm any future children?? And if they are choosing if i can have treatment if i am too fat or not surely they should not allow other large ladies to have babies the natural way. Take for instance my SIL (my older brothers girth friend as i like to call her) This is no exaggeration but she must be at the least 24stone, She has managed to have 4 babies, she does nothing while my brother goes out to work and then when he comes back he cooks the dinner and cleans and more or less does everything, when i used to go to their house she would call him from another room to say she needed something when it was not too far from her. She was allowed to have her babies and i am at more then 10 stone less than her, yes i am more than one whole person smaller then her but i am categorised as being too big. It really does break my heart. I know i am only 23 and i know i am not married but neither of us have children, neither of us smoke, neither of us drink (only on the odd occasion like a party) and we have been trying for more than 3 and a half years. So i am trying so much harder with the weight watchers for the next few weeks then i have to go back to the doctors to be weighed again to make sure i am under a BMI of 30 then we can fill in the paperwork again. The paperwork took almost 2 months to get a decision so if i lose enough weight and fill in the forms by the end of February, we should get another answer by April. Here is hoping.

candy buffet

I have been looking through a few wedding forums and there seem to be a lot of good feed back from candy buffets, i did want one but never knew if they would be popular or even if people would take any but after seeing that everyone had had success we have decided we are going to have one. We love sweets, all kinds and so does most of our families, and come on who doesn't like sweets, we will have soft sweets like harribo and other jellies but also bonbons, pear drops and mints. I am still looking to see what jars or bowls we are going to use but most people have had a variety so we will have a look at charity shops and ikea to see what we can get.

We also need to come up with a little poem to put on the table so here is a few little ideas, we may not use any of this and steal someone Else's but you never know.

Love is sweet,

Love is grand.

Welcome to our candy stand.

On a table,

Or a cart,

Check the tags to tell them apart.

Some for the old,

Some for the young.

Mix up the bag and you cant go wrong.

Take them all home,

Or eat them right here.

Watch out for the sour ones, 

You may shed a tear.

Think of others,

We like to share,

Why not have a candy bear.

Now you've had your candy treat,

Get up on your dancing feet.

Wow that worked out better than i thought, We just have to make sure we get candy bears now. lol. Here is my list of sweets that i would like:



Parma Violets




Bonbons (different flavours)




Giant Strawberries




Gummy Bears



Sour Cherries



Pear Drops




Millions (different flavours)




Love Hearts (maybe personalised ones)




Gummy rings




Lolly pops


MMMMMM i feel like eating sweeties now lol.

  

THE coolest save the date in the WORLD....maybe....

As i was getting up to date with my subscriptions i came across this one from met my match and i just had to share it.


Kate and Rich - 'Save the Date' (Wedding Invitation Film) from FX Films on Vimeo.

Wasn't that just the coolest thing you have ever seen, i laughed so much i had to watch it a second time. It got me thinking of what we were going to do (as we intended on just telling our family and sending little emails to our friends) and i though like less than 20 minutes ago, the MR qualified as a game designer so maybe we could make a little game for people to play that would give them the information before the invitation. I really haven't thought this through (as you can tell this will probably never work lol) but it would be awesome to do something like this or a video of some sort, a DVD game or something, i am so going to sleep on the idea and maybe look into it before i tell the MR and for him just to laugh in my face and send me to the local asylum lol. Any way i will let you know what i decided at some point.

What a bust

The main word in the title was 'bust', as i said in a previous post i had ordered a new wedding dress, well i got a 14 and a 16, i got in the 14 but i couldn't get my boobs in, they could barely get in the 16, i looked a mess, well from the under bust up below looked great. So i will be sticking with my original dress, after my mom talked me into putting it on again and we thought we could use the spare hanging straps for the dress maker to fix the broken loop, then she will pay for it to be cleaned, if it makes me happy, i am happy but at the same time i feel like i am still going to look like i had a really big dress but scrimped on everything else.

Don't get me wrong i LOVE!!!!! my original dress and it was always me favourite from the moment the lady in the shop talked me into trying it on. Also, i got a veil a while ago, i wanted an elbow length one so i though i would look on eBay, there was one advertised as a 2 tier elbow length veil, when i got it it was a 3 tier and it is past fingertip length, it was also supposed to be ivory but it couldn't be more white if you bleached it. So this has put me off wearing a veil.

One good point it i have got a new curling wand and i can curl my hair quite easy, and it stays in all day!!! This has never happened before, i tried it out at our works Christmas party and that is in a hot factory so i though with the cold and wind outside and the heat inside i would end up with flat hair before anyone got there but it was still curly the next day!!

This one was at work.

This was late that night before i went to bed.

This one is around 5pm the next day (after i had a mole removed from my face, are you just loving my Nelly look lol.)

So i will now be having my hair curly for the wedding with my tiara and no veil. I am not sure how good the curls will be if my hair is longer but if i try it and it doesn't work as good or at all then i will cut my hair to the length it is now which is around my shoulders so i know how long it needs to be to get a good curl.