bridesmaid dresses came

OK, yesterday the bridesmaid dresses came, as in my previous post i said i got the black one and a purple dip dyed one, well the dip dyed one just looked cheap, i tried them on and i wouldn't make my bridesmaids wear it at all, it made the boobs look so strange, and on Emma it was a little bit off the ground which i didn't want. The black one well what can i say about the black one other than.....I WANT ONE....I WANT ONE!!!!!!! it is amazing, its not thick like most bridesmaids dresses so it should make them sweat as much and they are very forgiving, they have this little split up the front of the top layer up to the boob line so it skims the curves beautifully and it came to the floor and didn't look too over the top or to revealing, i love it, i ordered a size 20 to try for Emma but she is losing weight so i think i will have to send them back then wait about 6/8 months to see whats going on then see about ordering it again, i have still not heard anything for my MOH so i will message her saying i have picked dresses that are black and hers may need to be taken up when i order it but if i don't hear anything then I'm not going to bother again, i will wait for her to get in touch. I ordered my dress which was a 16 but the date of delivery keeps going up it was at 14th jan now it is up to 25th jan so i looked and they had a 14 so i tried to order that, it says delivery on 11th jan which is Tuesday so we will see. i think a 14 may work as i could lose a few lbs if needed its not like i have to lose stones or anything so that's not a problem, the only worry is i am very top heavy so i will have to squish my boobies in to fit but i can always make them a bit flatter with a new bra so that's not a problem. When i told my mom she asked if i am going to change my mind again as i already got my other dress on her credit card and now i don't want it. I told her that it still is my dream dress and i would love to wear it but like how the one loop at the back snapped, what is to say all the others wont snap, it would just bother me, and i thought as i am not really going over board on other things and would like to save as much money as possible for any future fertility treatment that i don't want an over the top dress then for people to think i went and spent all my money on the dress and just got everything else on the cheap. I just think the new dress, should it fit, would be a bit more elegant but girly and more age appropriate, i want to look young as I'm not old, i think it is a very youthful dress. S me and my mom are going to see about putting my current dress back on eBay and just say i changed my mine, i am only human i am allowed to change my mind aint i???
We went to the flower warehouse today and i got 40 pull bows, 20 in cadbury purple and 20 in a shade lighter and they were really cheap too, about £3.50 a box with vat. They also have favour boxes in lilac a pack of 10 for £1.60 so about £10 for 6 packs.
I have been looking at the same site for the past year about the flowers and i think i am going to get my bouquets from them, for mine and 2 bridesmaids flowers its gonna cost about £55 which isn't too much. So far i think i have everything under control other than the MOH situation.

I will keep you posted when/if my dress arrives.

Im here

I am here.... it feels like forever and a day since i last posted even though it was probably only a few days ago.

Well last year i got weird looks when i said i was getting married in 2012 like it was a million years away but now i can say i am getting married next year!!!!!!!!! I seems so close....

Well i was having a bit of a bored day today so i was searching the net for everything and anything. I came across a few dresses that would be suitable for my bridesmaids but i need to see if they would be long enough for Emma as she is quite tall so i would order a few to see. this was the original one i was going to order.

This dress was for £89 and does not come with the blue stole but a purple one, but when i decided to order one that's when they decided the biggest they had was in a 14 and that would be too small so i had to give up on that one.

Then i found this one which i cant remember how much it was but it was about the same price maybe a little bit cheaper.

I ordered this one in black but the picture was a bit dark so here it is but in blue, it looks so pretty and hopefully it is long enough.

I also ordered this one too which i thought was awesome.

They are not from a bridesmaid shop or anything so i can send them back but i think i like this one because its just lighter and fresher looking.

Then as i was looking i fell in love, now i know i have said my dress is my dream dress, there are so many things about it that are just irritating me about it like having to have the lace hook fixed then there is no guarantee that the others would not break and it needs to be cleaned and i just have fell out of love with it. but i found this one that i think would work with the fact that i have found a hair style that is quite low maintenance and so this dress is a bit simpler and it was on sale for £150!!!!!!!!!! i thought my dress was a bargain but this one is brand new and this cheap how could i not order it, and it was the last one in a size 16 too. So without making you wait any longer here it is.

As we have been having fertility issues my body shape is most likely to change in the next 20 months and i think this dress will suit any shape and if it just so happened that i am in the situation where i am with child (i know not a perfect situation but it will hide it well and it will all be worth it.

The bridesmaids dresses should be coming this Friday and the wedding dress the following Friday. I cant wait.

Now a little moan. My MOH started uni this past September and so i understand that she will be busy but since then i have messaged numerous times by phone and on facebook and have not heard anything from her even though i know she wasn't always busy over Christmas. I don't know what to think, could it be she doesn't want anything to do with it any more. i cant think of a reason why she wouldn't at least message me saying hi and that she is really busy with uni but i got nothing. I have not ordered her a dress yet as they are mostly just to see if they are long enough for Emma but if she doesn't get in touch then I'm not gonna get a dress as it is a lot of money to spend if she wont be needing it. if she does then she may have to have a different dress and deal with it. What am i supposed to do???????

wow!!!!

I am so surprised at some peoples comments lately. I have decided that in January i am going to get Mimi 'done' she is just 6 months and having seasons, can open her up to all sorts of problems, and as she is so small there is no way i would breed her, i think this would just put too much pressure on her and myself as i don't think i could deal with a litter, and if anything was to happen to her i would hate myself so it is just the best option. Now on to the comments, someone who knows about my IF, heard that i was going to get Mimi done and said i should be a little bit more sympathetic as i know what its like not to be able to have children why should i put my dog through that........erm hello, she is my baby, she is so small and she depends on me, I'm not going to put her at risk of death just so that i can make money from her, there is a bit of a difference between me having a child and allowing my dog to have a litter. Just because of my IF i have not chosen to do this, i would hate myself if i let her keep her womb then get cancer, or i end up with a litter or puppies but she was so ill i had to put her down or she died, she cannot be replaced. Would you ask a parent to put their child in that situation, i think not. Its like not letting my child have their injections when they are born, it is to prevent suffering, not just to give them some pain.

OK rant over.....

christmas chocolates mmmm

I went out to pick up the last few things before the shops close for Christmas and i came across these beautiful chocolates i just had to get some. They are Irish cupcake chocolates and the cutest things i have ever seen, they don't taste too bad either, lol.

You will see one empty hole, that's because my mom couldn't wait for me to take a picture before devouring one, lol.


Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

Day 30 – A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

I don't have a picture from today as i have been really busy with shopping and the vets and making sure everything is ready for but i will re post a couple from the last few days.

The first one was from Tuesday night and the second one was from yesterday after my surgery.

The 3 good things that have happened in the last 30 days are:

1. I broke up from work for the Christmas holidays.
2. I got some amazing compliments at work about my outfit for the last day at work.
3. I have been able to teach Mimi to lie down (finally) and to push open the back door after toilet and push it closed after she is done.

Day 26, 27, 28 and 29

Sorry i haven't posted for my blog challenge for a few days i have been really busy, yesterday i finished work for the Christmas holidays and me and my mom were asked to do the food for the party so we have been so bust shopping and cooking over the past few days i have bearly had time to read eveyones posts but i managed it, the food was awesome, here is me yesterday:

As i have written before i love Christmas and i love dressing up so whats better than to dress up at Christmas. I was also shocked that my hair stayed curly, i normally spend like an hour on curling then as soon as i head out its gone flat so i was surprised.
I had to have a mole removed from my face today and i look like Nelly i have this plaster across my cheek but it is quite tender though.

Below there are 2 pictures where you can see the mole on my right cheek (on the left of the pictures)

I was told there didn't look like a problem with the mole but it had grown a bit and when i look down i could see it so i thought i will see if the doc will take it off (along with one on my back which had a skin tag in it). So i went today and she injected my face and it went numb almost straight away, the only think is i could feel what she was doing, not in a painful way but the sensation was making me a little woozy, i could feel her 'scooping' out the mole, it was one of the weirdest feeling ever. and now for the next few days i have to go around looking like this:

Now for the 4 days of challenges.

Day 26 – Someone you admire.

I admire Emma Watson, Hermionie Grainger from Harry potter, i know this one sounds strange but never once have i heard that she has been a diva or thinks she is better than anyone because she is famous, it was only recently that she said how shocked she was when she realised just how much money she has. She also goes to uni in America like any other normal girl. Such an inspiration.


Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

This was at my baptism in march 2009, since then i have changes in that i no longer attend church. I am and always will be a christian but last Christmas i was accused of stealing the one of our pastors tops from the ironing shop where i used to volunteer every Thursday morning and the odd day when someone else couldn't do it. I couldn't believe it, they were always gossiping about people who had left the church for whatever reason, and the day the top went missing i left with a tiny little gift bag that was about 2 inch by 4 inch which had a little gift from the pastor for my help in the shop, so where was i supposed to have put this top, i am not even the same shape or size as her. I just thought this was not on, for a while i was having texts asking if i had seen it as it was missing then that it was expensive and i will admit i did iron it, but i was hanging in that shop when i left. So that is how i have changed from this picture.

Day 28 – Your favourite movie.
I have so many movies that are my favourite that i don't know what to put, but i will say that some of the movies i can watch over and over again are the bring it on movies. I saw the first one while i was a cheerleader and i loved it.

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
I could never get tired of watching Disney, it doesn't bother me if it is movies or shows i love Disney, i don't think i will ever grow out of it.


Sorry about the picture over load, i think i got a little carried away.

Day 25 – Your Favourite Colour

My favourite colour is purple, and pink. Pink used to be my favourite but then it started to get very popular for chavs, i mean head to toe in pink tracksuits and their kids the same so i cut back on the pink. But purple is like totally awesome, that's why my colour scheme for the wedding is purple. For your viewing pleasure here are a few picks of my purple bits and pieces.

Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.

This means such a lot to me, this is me and my mom, she hates having her picture taken, lol. My mom is my best friend, i know people say their mom is their best friend but they have another best friend, well no, me and my mom do so much together its unreal, we used to go to the gym together like 5 times a week, we go shopping every week together, we even work together, if i have a problem my mom is there, if she has a problem i am there, the only thing is when i move out i will miss my mom so much even though i will be seeing her almost everyday for work.

Day 23 – Your Skincare Regime.

I have never really been effected by spots until these last few years with stress but even then there are only a few and nothing really major so when i was in college i would only uses wipes on my face unless i was having a facial then i would have the lot, cleanse tone and moisturise, now i sometimes use moisturiser before i put my make-up on but as i don't wear it every day i just stick to a bit of Johnson's baby lotion and sun cream if I'm gonna be outside a lot.

Day 22 – A photo of you as a child.

This was me when i was about 4 or 5, i loved having my picture taken so i have a million pictures that i could put on here but i dont think my scanner would cooperate for that long, lol.